Humans is one of God's (if you believe one) unique creatures. We are blessed (again, if you believe that is such thing as bless) with mind and IQ way higher than any other animals.
We have body, soul, mental, and somehow, we all believe that we have hearts (don't we!?). I mean not the physiology one. It's the "feeling". Some of us believe that animals have it too. Through times, we are told that we are special creatures that walk with our two feet and touch and do stuff with our two hands. Unlike other primate, we call ourselves so advance that we create systems, we discover technology, and unfortunately, to the point where we can destroy everything we touch.
The last seven weeks was like a roller coaster to me. I call it so alived (again) for so many times. But the highlight was at how I saw people's real colour with my very own eyes.
I experienced what I call fall out of trust. I watched my dignity being destroyed before my very own eyes by the most trusted individuals (that I've just known for a short while). It felt so hurt that I didn't know if it's pure sadness or anger that played the big role in my reactions. You know it, when I call it reaction, it was always silence. Painful silence.
Trust, dignity, integrity, lies, interest, carelessness, recklessness..
It all lead me to a new chapter where I met so many new friends (can I call them friends thou :p)
This group of people has helped me to detour from the "reality" for a short while every single day. I loved the moments, but I think it's too much now I'm just gonna call it an end for a while.
You'd be surprised how much friendships I have made in this "online platform". It just painful reality that what we seek is actually acceptance and connection. Things that got disappear everyday in our daily life, in our real life actually.
I don't know...
Written on September 21.
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