I started this fight in 2011.
ADS 2011 is my first challenge. I didn't know anything about Australia at that time, but then I decided to learn, to be prepared. Still in 2011, there was Taiwan Higher Education Expo held in my campus. I applied again, hoping I had the opportunity to be interviewed at place. But then, the committee told me that English student should not be sent to Taiwan, they offered me USA which was great news for me. While I was waiting the shortlisted candidates for ADS, I took some tests in LPSDM, written test, and interview. I passed it, and they said what I had to do next is waiting. Desember 2011 another good news came, I had been shortlisted and guess what.... I had no idea what IELTS was, and how the interview was about to be.
Somehow... I blamed myself at that time that I didn't prepared my best, that I didn't studied hard like other candidates. It proved me right, I failed the interview. I wasted like a month being grumpy.
it was on 2012 that I tried to applied for another three scholarships and 1 for ADS, again.
I can't recall which scholarship needs more efforts than others, but all scholarships required different documents. NZ-Scholarship is one of which required every applicant to send some important documents. The other scholarship was Fulbright. I didn't expect much since I applied with the minimum TOEFL score required. DAAD was the last scholarship in that year.
Still in the same year, I found the three scholarships I applied didn't want me at the time (hahhahahah)..
And another news come from LPSDM that the language training was about to start on NOvember. I was so glad to hear that. Finally...
And during the training, I got that email that said I had been shortlisted again for ADS. I prepared both like ....I don't know. I lost 7 kg of my weights which is great news. And I have more and more tests to take...
and today...just 2 days after that news on the local newspaper about our local government scholarship, I find that I failed it again...the ADS scholarship. HUffff....
It feels like all efforts I have done never seems enough for this time, I screamed... I cried just like someone cried over his beloved one's died. But then what, does it change everything? Does it mean I have to stop this fight? I do know that I need holiday, like...soon...but then what? I shouldn't stop. I shouldn't ... I must not...
THis year.... I start it all over again... If I fail again, I will fight again...
Rome wasn't build in a day. Maybe it's not the right time to get that.
AJA AJA/.... Fighting...!!!!
ADS 2011 is my first challenge. I didn't know anything about Australia at that time, but then I decided to learn, to be prepared. Still in 2011, there was Taiwan Higher Education Expo held in my campus. I applied again, hoping I had the opportunity to be interviewed at place. But then, the committee told me that English student should not be sent to Taiwan, they offered me USA which was great news for me. While I was waiting the shortlisted candidates for ADS, I took some tests in LPSDM, written test, and interview. I passed it, and they said what I had to do next is waiting. Desember 2011 another good news came, I had been shortlisted and guess what.... I had no idea what IELTS was, and how the interview was about to be.
Somehow... I blamed myself at that time that I didn't prepared my best, that I didn't studied hard like other candidates. It proved me right, I failed the interview. I wasted like a month being grumpy.
it was on 2012 that I tried to applied for another three scholarships and 1 for ADS, again.
I can't recall which scholarship needs more efforts than others, but all scholarships required different documents. NZ-Scholarship is one of which required every applicant to send some important documents. The other scholarship was Fulbright. I didn't expect much since I applied with the minimum TOEFL score required. DAAD was the last scholarship in that year.
Still in the same year, I found the three scholarships I applied didn't want me at the time (hahhahahah)..
And another news come from LPSDM that the language training was about to start on NOvember. I was so glad to hear that. Finally...
And during the training, I got that email that said I had been shortlisted again for ADS. I prepared both like ....I don't know. I lost 7 kg of my weights which is great news. And I have more and more tests to take...
and today...just 2 days after that news on the local newspaper about our local government scholarship, I find that I failed it again...the ADS scholarship. HUffff....
It feels like all efforts I have done never seems enough for this time, I screamed... I cried just like someone cried over his beloved one's died. But then what, does it change everything? Does it mean I have to stop this fight? I do know that I need holiday, like...soon...but then what? I shouldn't stop. I shouldn't ... I must not...
THis year.... I start it all over again... If I fail again, I will fight again...
Rome wasn't build in a day. Maybe it's not the right time to get that.
AJA AJA/.... Fighting...!!!!
Tidak ada komentar:
Posting Komentar