Week 6 and I get that burning feeling again. Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah..

What can I ask more. I am more than enough as a person. I have everything I need as a person. As a post-grad student, I get full support of my country. As a daughter, I have always been loved and prayed in every breath my parents. As a sister, as an aunt, as a friend.. as people of the world, I live fully with all it takes to live. I am just a lucky kid.

However, in this post-grad life sometimes pushes everyone to the limit. Not to mention if you live away from home where at most of the time you will feel lonely. Only assignments and computer, books and Facebook that are always there with you. I was on my down time the last 5 weeks. I felt what it is being demotivated. I felt I lost interest in finishing my study and run home. For what? For nothing. I was soooo lost that I was stuck not knowing what to do next, or even first. I feel like I was being pulled down to the earth. I was being hit to the ground and slap in the harshest way possible. I just can't describe how empty I felt and how freezing my brain was.

But then...

I read this line somewhere in the social media that says "You don't really have done everything until you wake up in the middle of night and pray"

That was.. the kindest yet the bitterest reminder I have to take for sure. I am a muslim and I should have known what to do from the first place. there's no such thing as lost and lost, I should have known earlier that it was a sign of a sickened-heart. I just need my heart to be soften by the midnight prayers. And that's it... Allah helps.. Allah always helps..

And now I do understand what assignment really is for. It is for students to get that willing again to study deeper and more...

Now.. Let's do that proposal!!!

Yehaaaaaa