What on Earth!? (A repost of Facebook Notes posted on Dec 2010)

Ok....let say I was in wrong place, again! but I think nope.... I was about meeting unwanted "person"..

It was not that bad... really! but sometimes it's just like when you drink hot latte with cream! come on! with cream, a cup of hot latte! it's hot....I know how weird it be, but to be honest I have that experience. I know I run-off my topic..

sometimes when you wake up in the morning and find that day is going to be different or excited, more excited than the day you have before, you know... you feel like it's strange, and instead of excited you become so anxious. I should stay at home the whole day...but I didn't

okay...here's the problem. I admit it that maybe I could be the most sophisticated "human" you have ever met. I am the you "think" the most weird and the most fool or the most what we call "alien". Okay I am an alien. So what?

Even an alien doesn't need that blaming and judging and disgusting way of seeing!! I don't like it. Never like it. not From that one!!!

I used to be in wrong damn place! used to meet some damn wrong people! become a part of it and pretended that everything was just okay, while in fact I was not OK.

I am not OK... my days ruined.. my feeling messed up....my thoughts twisted... what happen to me?

The worst thing is that some people just threat me as a robot that I can handle every matter, that I can tackle every "bad word"... I just cant take it anymore...

I really need some rest. from everything... from everyone...I need to go somewhere sooooo far....for soooo long... I need to be alone for sometime....If I just could..

I get sick of everything and I need a balance coz I'm already old...