I call it So Alived (Repost from my FB Account)

 Malam ini…

Ada pertempuran di televisi; amerika dan Irak…tentang kepenatan dan kegilaan prajurit Amerika di kamp mereka. Sesekali suara deru listrik yang aku tidak tahu dari mana asalnya terdengar. Lampu kamar ini menyala sangat terang, sementara dua teman sudah sedari tadi bermimpi. Di TV perang benar2 dimulai, tokoh utamanya digambarkan sebagai seorang pemuda biasa yang walaupun punya sisi liar, tapi masih enggan membunuh dan masih berperasaan. Stress tegangan tinggi karena mereka harus melewati sumur-sumur minyak yang telah dibakar.

Above these all… I’m thinking of USA, Iraq, War, Oil, worth, Country, Islam, Win and loss… what do people think!? I know that at same place in other world maybe, there is a little girl playing with her doll while her mom is going to work. Someday when she grows up, by time, she knows what people believe. What people believe…. That’s world girl, … face it. God just needed 7 days to create everything. But everything can be lost in a word. WAR.

Bukan itu intinya,.. hidup dan dunia. I prefer to the first word. Maybe I’m not good in this term, but I’m going to try to guess what life wants from me?

This week I felt so alived. I woke up every single morning, had breakfast or brunch. Socialize with family and friends, got some conflicts from each…. Hibernated to calm the fire that already burnt in my mind. I know myself. And I know how to deal with my angriest . I know exactly what to do. That’s why I need some times to be alone. Being alone doesn’t mean lonely. I’m not lonely. Then when I thought enough was enough, I got up, standing still. I had some laughs again, some smiles, strange smiles some. Haha…

Now, the war ends up in the movie, but not in some part of this world. It’s still going on. On TV, Oprah, who I like the most, is leading conversations with some moms of the country. I hate to know that she plans to quit the show in 2011. Why it has to be in 2011 is still a big question from me. I don’t want to make speculations about it. She said that she needed some rest. I love her anyway. She has a great life to live on. She intends to quit the show, but I know her life will keep moving on. What about yours?

Life….
We find that there are always new births every day, every single day, death as well. We watch some criminals can live freely near us, while good people cry for having no food to eat. We feel a various feelings, go through our hearts and surprisingly we figure out that it changes then. Today we may hate someone we loved yesterday or vice versa. Our dreams change rapidly and sometimes some people cant explain about it.However we should thank God that we have still time; year, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, and even seconds. We change every breath we take. We don’t stop growing because we are too old. No, because we learn a new think every single day. Sometimes, we just to blind to see… but the Truth is just here, near us, in our heart….

03:27 am, March 27, 2010…