Malam ini…
Ada pertempuran di televisi; amerika dan Irak…tentang kepenatan dan kegilaan
prajurit Amerika di kamp mereka. Sesekali suara deru listrik yang aku tidak
tahu dari mana asalnya terdengar. Lampu kamar ini menyala sangat terang,
sementara dua teman sudah sedari tadi bermimpi. Di TV perang benar2 dimulai,
tokoh utamanya digambarkan sebagai seorang pemuda biasa yang walaupun punya
sisi liar, tapi masih enggan membunuh dan masih berperasaan. Stress tegangan
tinggi karena mereka harus melewati sumur-sumur minyak yang telah dibakar.
Above these all… I’m thinking of USA, Iraq, War, Oil, worth, Country, Islam,
Win and loss… what do people think!? I know that at same place in other world
maybe, there is a little girl playing with her doll while her mom is going to
work. Someday when she grows up, by time, she knows what people believe. What
people believe…. That’s world girl, … face it. God just needed 7 days to create
everything. But everything can be lost in a word. WAR.
Bukan itu intinya,.. hidup dan dunia. I prefer to the first word. Maybe I’m not
good in this term, but I’m going to try to guess what life wants from me?
This week I felt so alived. I woke up every single morning, had breakfast or
brunch. Socialize with family and friends, got some conflicts from each….
Hibernated to calm the fire that already burnt in my mind. I know myself. And I
know how to deal with my angriest . I know exactly what to do. That’s why I
need some times to be alone. Being alone doesn’t mean lonely. I’m not lonely. Then
when I thought enough was enough, I got up, standing still. I had some laughs
again, some smiles, strange smiles some. Haha…
Now, the war ends up in the movie, but not in some part of this world. It’s
still going on. On TV, Oprah, who I like the most, is leading conversations
with some moms of the country. I hate to know that she plans to quit the show
in 2011. Why it has to be in 2011 is still a big question from me. I don’t want
to make speculations about it. She said that she needed some rest. I love her
anyway. She has a great life to live on. She intends to quit the show, but I
know her life will keep moving on. What about yours?
Life….
We find that there are always new births every day, every single day, death as
well. We watch some criminals can live freely near us, while good people cry
for having no food to eat. We feel a various feelings, go through our hearts
and surprisingly we figure out that it changes then. Today we may hate someone
we loved yesterday or vice versa. Our dreams change rapidly and sometimes some
people cant explain about it.However we should thank God that we have still
time; year, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, and even seconds. We change
every breath we take. We don’t stop growing because we are too old. No, because
we learn a new think every single day. Sometimes, we just to blind to see… but
the Truth is just here, near us, in our heart….
03:27 am, March 27, 2010…